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Life w/o u is so much different. I still cant adapt it, i know i must accept and understand it, but suddenly, my world keep falling down and i became so small so little w/o powers. Seems to me, i became a person w/o any strengths only left my weakness and it's all magnifying as the days passes by.
When i tell myself not to think about it, Relax it's ok! But the images of the past keep coming in my brain then few seconds later i realise it's all my IMAGINATION only. Tears start seeping out my eyes. "Control, hold it back" words like this reminded me not to allow the tears to fall. We had been through alot together-->WORK, SCHOOL, PLAY, EAT, almost everything under the sun. SO? how can i not remember or think about it. But i am happy that i had such wonderful memories with u. U made me the top of your "pyramid" now i am still at the peak but the feeling and the way of receive is different and i totally understand, because u are struggling inside too.
NOW, to me, ur lame jokes, things that i dislike in the past even u biting ur finger nails, doing silly things(really silly things), or disturbing me when i am so focus on the TV, I MISS THEM ALL! How i wish all these will happen in front of me again.
I know u don't feel good it, u did tried. It's me!!! I think i am just being selfish and unreasonable.
Now i realise how much i love u.
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