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Life w/o u is so much different. I still cant adapt it, i know i must accept and understand it, but suddenly, my world keep falling down and i became so small so little w/o powers. Seems to me, i became a person w/o any strengths only left my weakness and it's all magnifying as the days passes by.
When i tell myself not to think about it, Relax it's ok! But the images of the past keep coming in my brain then few seconds later i realise it's all my IMAGINATION only. Tears start seeping out my eyes. "Control, hold it back" words like this reminded me not to allow the tears to fall. We had been through alot together-->WORK, SCHOOL, PLAY, EAT, almost everything under the sun. SO? how can i not remember or think about it. But i am happy that i had such wonderful memories with u. U made me the top of your "pyramid" now i am still at the peak but the feeling and the way of receive is different and i totally understand, because u are struggling inside too.
NOW, to me, ur lame jokes, things that i dislike in the past even u biting ur finger nails, doing silly things(really silly things), or disturbing me when i am so focus on the TV, I MISS THEM ALL! How i wish all these will happen in front of me again.

I know u don't feel good it, u did tried. It's me!!! I think i am just being selfish and unreasonable.
Now i realise how much i love u.

Labels: important of u

BeBe and me wanted to save money before he enter NS, but what did we spent on i will show u the evidence.

Apple Vingar--- Yummy!

My Salmon & Spinach Basil sauce spet....---- New and nice

All together we spent $60+, And we called it saving money. Heat pain for the money but happy for the lovely evperience we shared. I uploaded it in my Sweet Memories folder.

Love u my bebe!

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I don't know why this is happening to you or it's us? Who had changed, or it's just you. It is really really disappointing that i see with my own eyes, and then hear from my own ears. Which should i believe? I kept things like that from the rest, i want to keep you as a good friend, i do not want to spoil our friendship but i saw it with my own eyes! My FRIEND, my eyes!
I kept my myself calm throughout the conversation still hoping to turn the situation around. PLS!!! tel what should i do? How can i help? You are not like that, you did comfort me when i need a friend and i was touched about it. Yesterday i was thinking and thinking, but when i remenber how much we had tolerate and put up to you, i felt hurt and unfair to the rest.
EG.(1) My birthday where were you? You said y can't come, i am fine, but i still have to call you and hoping you could come.
(2)Our breakfast/lunch meeting pls consider your attendance. Like what Eileen said everyone made the effort, everyone made little sacrifices to meet.
(3) The lie you said in my face, the truth i saw with my eyes.
I am hurt, but i want you as our Friend still.

BeBe, i have nothing to say, it's i don't understand you enough or you don't understand me enough. Seems like we are so different in some ways, is the differences good or bad? The way to think the way to talk the way we want each other to be it's so different. Is our relationship right from the start or wrong, but i never regret going in your life. I never!!! What is a right relationship? What is a wrong relationship? You said time to slowly solve it out, but think about you are entering NS, when i ask you how are you going to solve you don't even know what to do. Is it just we take as nothing had happen, like what we had done in the past?

Facing 2 impact in a day, feels bad for me. Really bad, who can understand what i am going through who will comfort me this time. When i quarrelled with BeBe, it's my friend who comfort me throughout. Now when something happen to my friend my bebe did a slight comforting. Now both happened together, who??!!

Labels: i love my bebe, i love my friend